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We talked again last night.What he doesn’t seem to realize is that if he isn’t loyal to someone,if there isn’t someone his guts will simply not allow him to manipulate,then his life is going to be a succession of discovered deceits.His treacheries are so reasonable that he thinks any understanding friend would forgive him…But he will not be forgiven.Time and again he will be abandoned.
Loyalty is not reasonable.It is the easiest sentiment of all to argue against.If we have a friend we sometimes act against our own best interests.
Time came when i appeared quite self-destructive because i have this friend and there is something i must do for him.
There are worse things than losing money,losing position,even than losing life;and if we have a friend we can sense that.But what words could i use that would reach inside him and trigger such a feeling?I couldn’t explain why anyone would want to be that way,when he knows that he has the alternative of acting rationally and living an orderly life.
Feelings of friendship are almost always mutual.In most instances we’re not entirely certain how the other person feels,especially since so many people come on strongly for other reasons;to tease,to manipulate,to become sought after but…it can be fix and possible to be enlightened and know it.In the end after a long conversation I realized friends eventually forgive and come back together because people need people more than they need pride.
Letting go of someone is not easy thing to do and not just setting that person free,but it is also setting yourself from all the things you think and keep in your heart.It doesn’t mean that you have to stop loving.It only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back.Its not always a bad thing.Instead it makes you a better person,helps you realize your mistakes.Keep in mind that evrything happens for a reason.The bad things in life open your eyes to the good things you weren’t paying attention to before.
I’ve been trying to take the feeling,the passion,the romance but what ever i do deep inside my heart I still care.They said…"Love is when you can’t sleep…its when you want to keep your eyes open"…"Love isn’t when you keep holding on…its when you learn to let go"…"Love isn’t when you see him everywhere…its when you close your eyes and he is still there".
Yes,I know saying "I LOVE YOU" is easy but its not those words that counts,its saying them from the heart that matters even when you know he didn’t feel anything…you didn’t mind and still carry on with the feeling.
Letting you go doesn’t mean that i don’t love you anymore.If you only knew for each passing day that I didn’t talk to you,I feel like dying not to hear you.If you think I’m a selfish jerk its only because… im really loving someone like you.
What you’ve seen is me…the real me.I may never be the girl you look for but I will always be the girl who will look out for you each and everyday.
I decided to stop,to let you free its not b’coz I wanna hurt you but its b’coz my feeling is getting too strong,and i think its wise to stop for a while and give my heart a time to breathe.I’ll just let the time use my mind to weigh our situation based on reason and not on emotion.
What hurts most is when you can’t fight for that one thing that would make you happy. And When he says…"i dont feel anything and it takes time to get the passion".The best thing to do is to set him free coz i will never lose by loving him but by holding back.
Its true that may be loves found and lost,and your hearts may break many times,but now let the hope of love come and make me smile co’z I really really don’t wanna go through same pain again.
mitch
